Ran to the store, got supper, figured would meet the wife at home about the same time... nope that didnt pan out.
She text me saying the car wouldn't start. So i drove to missoula to pick her up, looks like starter is dead, so we get to find a mechanic to fix it. I hate not being able to work on cars any more.
so we get to spend who knows how much getting it back on the road. But thats tomorrow, for now it can sit at walmart.
we got home did supper and put a movie in and relaxed for the night, have to say the drive up to missoula to get deliiah and then come back home has taken its toll, i am hurting tonight.
kids are watching "mirror Mirror" , i made it about 10 min into it and that was enough for me. defiantly not my kind of show.
On to a different subject, the though of HE (when the liver wont clean out and it overloads on toxins and they end up going to your brain causing mood swings, grumpyness and a lot of other serious and not so serious side effects.) Scares the crap out of me. I have read many stories of others that have had battles with it before their transplant and it has long term effects, it kind of dulls the mind, makes it hard to learn new things, and other assorted issues.
Since i have been online, i spend most of my time surfing and reading about interesting topics, as some have seen some of the things i post for everyone to read. I scour news sources from around the world, stop by Nasa and other scientific sites, check out the sun every few days, read on new quantum physics ideas, and a host of other things. While since being sick and stuck at home i have done a LOT more of this, i enjoy it. I have yet to give up and stop learning, i have a curious brain, always have. While most of what i read is way above my head, and some i just read to read. I enjoy what i do get out of it. With the though of HE i am a bit scared. I could not imagine getting on line and only checking email and face book and playing games, i know for many that is all they want to do, and that is ok, but for me that would be like a death sentence in ways. There is so much information out there,and so many things to learn and discover. The thought of not being able to comprehend what i am reading, or retain it is frighting. A real worry for me. I am hoping that i some how manage any serous effects from HE but very few are that lucky.
As many have said , life is different after transplant you are not the same person as you once were in many ways. That worry's me to.
Just venting.. thinking with my fingers.. but it is a real worry that i have. I could not imagine not learning and reading like i do now.
Speaking of reading, i have discovered i am cheap *lol* was in the store getting supper and there was a new John Grisham book out, i was thinking to my self, ohhhh this should be good i have not read this one... i should get it, until i picked it up and looked at the back cover and they wanted $10 for it. I love reading a good book, and have not had one in a while, but no way am i going to pay that much for a book i am going to read once or maby twice if i am desperate. I will have to find a used book store and see if i can find a copy, i hit one book store last year and picked up a a hard copy of a grisham book for $2. Only hard back of his that i do have. But could not pass that up.
ok , time to get off here, gota get the kids rounded up and ready for school in the morning, make sure they have everything ready. So thats it for today, unless i wake up in the middle of the night in pain, then i may post more.
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