I do, not for anything i have done recently, but for whats coming.
Am i doing the right thing by putting the wife and family through all of this. Unlike them i have read and researched, and i know what is ahead, and its not a good thing at all.
Once it starts there is no turning back.. things will go down hill and stay that way until i am lucky enough for a transplant or croak.
But am i doing right by sticking by our family and putting them through all of this that is to come?
The last thing i want to do is hurt the ones that i love, but as we all know that have been around this beast its going to happen.
I just wonder if i am doing the right thing. I cant see myself being anywhere else, but hurting them is the last thing i want to do, and i know its going to.
Between the HE and all the worry and stress, hospital trips, ER trips... so much is ahead that is not right at all.. am i doing whats right by putting them through all of this?
As i slowly go down hill, it becomes more and more pressing to me to know that i am doing whats right, i dont want to hurt them.
Ok im off for now...
just rambelings that are bouncing around in my head.
It effects everyone in the family, whether its physically or emotionally. It will take a toll on everyone. You need to be there for each other and let them know you love them. Tomorrow is never promised. Say the things you need to now, you don't want regret or what ifs later and do the things that count now. Keep your head held high, pray, and think positive thoughts.
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